You may have pushed these memories away, put them in a box to keep them from hurting you again and again.   They still come up from time to time and you wish you could control it. 

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Maybe you've never admitted to yourself that those things happened, you can't imagine saying them out loud to another person.  It's just all too much.

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Or maybe you've tried to get help but talking about it over and over was just too painful. 

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You developed a narrative that plays in your head about feeling worthless or powerless, that you fight against every day.

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You have a complicated relationship with your parent(s), sometimes (or all the time) you have to pretend to get through the interaction.

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There could be two versions of you, the one that puts on a great show and the one that's barely holding it together.

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